Flame in my lower back x endless spasms x shortness of breath x no sleep for days x try to function = body betrayal.
Arthritis entered spine after fire. Fire burned muscles. Spine suffocated in smoke. It’s just aging.
Trauma language in muscles x unknown future x tilt sewing machine x betrayal constant pain =
Fear. Try to look like everything is okay x grab back x lean back into pain bend forward.
Spend hours stretching, acupuncture, massage, yoga = finances. Worth it to spend. Every move a possible flare-up. It will come back to bite you.
Work with throbbing x ice x stretch bands x rolled towel = clothing not too tight on waist. Meditate x breathing exercises sleepless nights = escapism and delusion.
Root of trauma can be dealt with through breath, meditation, facing it. Try one of 10,000 methods.
Cindy Rinne creates art and writes in San Bernardino, CA. She is Poet in Residence for the Neutra Institute Gallery and Museum. Cindy is the author of several books: Letters Under Rock (forthcoming Elyssar Press), Moon of Many Petals (Cholla Needles Press), Listen to the Codex (Yak Press), and others. Her poetry appeared or is forthcoming in: Anti-Herion Chic, Unpsychology Magazine, MORIA, Verse of Silence, several anthologies, and others. www.fiberverse.com